Do you KNOW, deep inside there is more to life?  That you were meant for more?

I UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN THERE.

I GREW UP IN A VERY TYPICAL MIDWEST FAMILY DURING THE 70'S.

We may not have been wealthy but we had everything we needed to thrive.  Our mom was a transplant from Texas.  Having grown up in a cosmopolitan family and lifestyle she brought the class and manners to our family that would serve us all well for the entirety of our lives.  Additionally she was our caregiver, always there to patch up a scuffed knee and send us on our way to play. She used to tell us, "You're going to love one another if it kills you." Whatever she did it must have worked for we are all very close to this day.

Our dad taught us more lessons then I can recount here in a few short paragraphs.  Suffice to say, a very large part of the person I am today is because of him.  AT 17 he was recruited out of a tiny, speck of a town in Illinois by the Army for intelligence work in Washing D.C. He became a Green Beret, Special Forces and part of the 82nd Airborne Division.  He left the military probably much earlier than he should have to raise his children in a more stable environment.  He went on to run his own small business for the remainder of his career life. He was, and still is to the day, a brilliant man with a thirst for knowledge.  At 85 years old he still studies anything he can get his hands on including the latest technology.  His conversations rival those of the Greek scholars and thankfully his uncanny ability to understand human nature and global sociology he taught and passed down to his children.  Much of those lessons where the beginnings of the work I do to this day.

He never achieved the massive financial success he always wanted but he achieved something much greater, something that few men could ever dare to have done.  He raised six children's who learned to think for themselves, learned to analyze data, own their own sovereignty, understand human nature and to always questions everything.  To not see with the eyes but see with your heart, soul and intellect, for below everything lies the truth.  And most recently, "The Paradox of life is that everything is important and yet nothing is important."

BUT I ALSO GREW UP IN A COMMUNITY THAT, OUTSIDE MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY, THERE WAS MOSTLY A MENTALITY OF LACK AND FEAR

Even as a young girl I always understood there was a world much larger than mine.  Again, I think this came from the influence of both my parents who had experienced a grander world outside the little Midwest town we lived in.  And as such, they educated us to understand and never forget to not think small.

Finding that I didn't really fit in with the confined thinking of lack and fear I quickly set out on my own adventure to find my place in the world. I went to college, joined the Air Force, met the love of my life and was married all by the age of 23. Finally, I had broken free from a small community, that while was relatively safe, kind and relatable, it was the mediocracy that my soul could not relate to.

However, shortly after marriage, my husband and I had left the Air Force and found ourselves once again back in my little Midwest community.

I TOOK THE LONG ROAD BUT EVENTUALLY REALIZED A LIFELONG DREAM

Life finally stabilized enough and I was able to go back to school, finish my undergrad work and go to graduate school, graduating with a degree in Chiropractic medicine.

By this time my husband's business was fully established, we had the house, two cars, boat, living the dream as they say.  However, within a few short years I had turned 35 and my biological clock alarm went off.

A NEW SEASON OF LIFE

Three weeks before the planes were driven into the World Trade Center I brought my greatest joy into the world. At that moment nothing else mattered and everything mattered at the same time. I gave up the beginnings of a career to become a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom while helping my husband with his company. For the first several years I did teach part time as an adjunct profession as well. I was happily consumed by the riggers of being a present mom and partner to my husband.  It was both exhausting and immensely satisfying at the same time and I would choose it all over again if given the opportunity.

I didn't know it at the time, but everything I had gone through up to this point, the long winding road, the few successes and many, many failures, from the homelessness as a teen to the beautiful life with my husband and son, my graduate education, the military, teaching on a colligate level, all of it, had only been part of my preparation for what my life's work really would become.

But I didn't know that yet...and I was still almost two decades away from fully understanding it.

I had more sadness and confusion and pain to come before that part of the plan would be revealed to me.  

I wasn't ready yet.

BY ALL STANDARDS I HAD THE PERFECT LIFE,

SO WHY WAS I SO UNHAPPY?

Decades passed.  We buildt a massively successful business together, including moving out of the Midwest to the Southeast, starting over and rebuilding even better than before.

We took the nice vacations, put our son through college, and built a beautiful home on an acre of property.

My unhappiness was insidious and snuck up on me.  The more I became discontent the angrier I become towards those I loved the most.  I was resentful towards my husband that I had given up my dreams for him and all the while my youth had slipped past.

Eventually the sadness and anger was more stress than my body could handle and it began to let me know that I had to fix whatever it was that was making me so unhappy.

It took gall bladder removal, two knee surgeries a car accident and a year and a half of crippling back pain that I finally threw up my hands and surrendered.

This was when my true work began.

Already a ferocious student, I began studying everything I could get my hands on that wasn't conventional medical wisdom.  Dr. Joe Dispenza's books and teaching were my gateway into this new and exciting world and I couldn't get enough.

I studied ancient texts from India, Buddhism and all the great Yogic avatars like Babaji and Parmaahansa Yogananda.  I studied quantum physics, the work of institutions like the HeartMath Institute, I became a certified Shaman studying under Dr. Alberto Villoldo at the Four Winds Society. I became a certified Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapist under Delores Cannons teaching. I became a certified Tony Robbins Results Coach and it went on and on. Dr. Joe Dispenza's books and teaching were my gateway into this new and exciting world and I couldn't get enough.

I traveled to seminars across the country. Asking questions and looking for answers. It seemed every time I discovered one answer a thousand more questions developed. I was insearch of the illusive but I kept going.

This didn't even included the hundreds - yes hundreds - of books I read on any topic that fascinated me and that I thought could help me.

I FINALLY GOT IT!

In the process of trying to heal myself both physically and mentally I uncovered the wisdom that has been around as long as man has walked the face of this earth - maybe even longer.

I learned to take off my glasses that kept me programmed to a false reality and instead opened my eyes to the infinite power each and every one of us possesses within ourselves.

I healed my body, I blossomed, I grew. I began to like myself again and then love myself again. I started having compassion for others where before was only judgement and contempt. I began to become fulfilled in a way I had never known before, even with all of my so-called success. I had become a new person, I had become the person I came into the world to be. I found the seven year old me and gave her breath and voice.

And best of all, I learned how to tach others to do the same thing.

What Does It Mean to Be a Shaman?

Shamanic practices comes from indigenous cultures around the world.  As far back as the stone ages, these were the men and women who kept the wisdom of how energy of our bodies, nature and the universe worked as one.  To the Shaman, there is no distinction between the seen and the unseen for they have a foot in both worlds and can see the truth of our existence both here on this planet and the blueprint of creation.

The Shaman learns to traverse linear time and space via their consciousness and move into a place where the timelessness exists.  In this altered conscious state, the Shamanic practitioner can access higher wisdom, journey to find lost soul parts, remove low energetic frequencies and effect the body's healing by releasing trauma.

As a Shaman, we learn to journey in this space of no time, and go back to moments in the memory to rewrite the story, to heal the trauma, creating a ripple effect in this linear time.

The Shaman tradition teaches us that all illness, whether it be physical, emotional, mental or spiritual is created from the suppressing of our emotions, which creates tension in our body - the breeding ground for imbalance and ill health. As humans who have forgotten our own divinity, we develop stories and belief systems that create a negative narrative in complete contradiction with what our soul knows to be the truth.  This then creates illness, disease and a life of pain and suffering.

As Shamans, we help to release this tension that we hold within by removing the low frequency energy and integrating all aspects of who we truly are - making us complete and whole again.